SO I've been "celebrating" Lent.... I don't even know if that's what you'd say...
I think it's I've been "observing" Lent....
well participating anyways....
I don't even really know why...
Its a time of 'fasting' to recognize the sacrifice Christ made for you ....
not necessarily food fasting but just giving up something in your life for 40 days before Easter.
I've heard people pick really dumb things like not eating popsicles, or chewing gum,.. especially by my young Catholic friends in Elementary who were forced to do this by their parents....
now that I'm older and actually DO appreciate what Jesus went through for me I thought I'd better pick something 'real'.
So I prayed and thought, and talked to people around me. I was inspired to choose to give up wearing make-up for Lent. I know, sounds almost as dumb as the popsicles but it really isn't.
This has been REALLY hard. I feel really insecure, and ugly. I look pale and tired all the time. It has forced me to look at issues of vanity and unhealthy habits in my life. Me HAVING to wear make-up or "hide" behind it on a daily basis.
I've cried, fought with my husband, and have chosen not to go out to certain things because I don't want people to see me without make-up on. By now you must be thinking, "what? does she look like the elephant man or something?"
No I don't, but I certainly feel like I do.
I haven't had any great insights or revelations from God through all this, infact I can't really say I've learned anything. But I have gotten used to seeing my own face.
Being able to look in the mirror and like what I see, weird I know. But nice.
